“Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad you can’t sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words but they don’t come out right? Have you ever… Have you ever,” – Brandy
Most people can say that they have had one love – that special someone – who didn’t work out in their life. Even though you really wanted it to, that someone you tried to, or wanted to, hold on to just slipped through the fingers. Maybe you were too young, maybe you weren’t ready, or maybe you just didn’t realize how dumb it would be to let this person get out of your life. Maybe situations around the two of you were too much for the other person to handle. Maybe you just thought the situations were too much for them, but that special person didn’t care, they wanted you all the same.
Unfortunately, that has happened to me twice.
The first person I am guilty of forsaking is Jesus Christ; the other, is the woman who has now – after many years apart – agreed to marry my dumb-self.
Seriously, I have no doubt that God put us in each other’s paths all those years ago because we were His plan for us. But because I’m an ignoramus – and as I explained a few columns ago had decided that I had to be in control of my own life – I fouled it up. I threw His perfect and wonderful plans for my life out.
Over the years, I’ve often wondered what my life could have been like had I not let her go. I’ve also wondered the same about my life had I not let go of God. Those two thoughts alone are enough to shatter an otherwise good-night’s-sleep.
There wasn’t much I could do to salvage the one relationship, however, I could save my relationship with Jesus just by turning away from my ways, swallowing my pride and asking for His unwavering, unconditional forgiveness and help. (Also in a previous column for those keeping up, it took years to come to that realization.)
“If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times comes back to you and says, ‘I repent,’ forgive him.” – Luke 17:3, 4 (NIV).
That’s Jesus talking people! In the context, He was telling His disciples how they should be willing to forgive. But He was also showing hoe He will unquestionably forgive us if we truly seek His forgiveness.
While I had lived many years without Christ, and seemingly had it all together, I knew I was missing a very special love, and embrace, and grace and forgiveness by not being near to God. When I finally swallowed my own misery that I had created, I once again felt His love, His embrace, His grace and His much-needed forgiveness in my life.
He also saw fit to bring that one special person – my one-and-only earthbound love – back into my life. She had received the grace and forgiveness of Jesus Christ at an earlier age than I. Truly loving God, and also truly loving me on this Earth, she offered me forgiveness and the love that had always existed between us.
How can she love me like this, an idiot-ignoramus? How do I love her the way that I always have? How do any of us truly know what “love” is? It’s because He first loved us. If not for His love for us, none of us could know or experience love. There would be no example of true love, because Jesus showed us true love.
As I read the rest of Brandy’s lyrics, I realized the words could stand as a modern-day version of Jesus’ love (minus the poppy “baby” parts of course). The words could easily represent what Jesus was saying to all of us while He lived on Earth.
“Have you ever been in love, been in love so bad, you’d do anything to make them understand? Have you ever had someone steal your heart away, you’d give anything to make them feel the same?”
God loves you that much!
He loves you enough that He would send His only son to Earth to die for you, for all of us ignoramus humans. Jesus died to create a way for us to be forgiven of our sins, so that we can come back into His embrace.
“Have you finally found the one you’ve given your heart to, only to find that one won’t give their heart to you?”
‘Have you ever’ thought of how it breaks God’s heart when you deny Him?
Fathers and mothers, you know what it’s like when your children rebel against you and your teachings, and man it hurts. How would it feel if your children outright denied you? Would you be up at night? Of course you would! Sometimes just a small amount of our children’s rebellious nature is enough to keep us from sleeping a minute.
‘Have you ever’ thought of how your rebellion, my rebellion, all of our rebellion keeps God awake at night? ‘Have you ever’ thought of how denying Christ breaks God’s heart?
We all have known Earthly heartbreak, but can you imagine how many times each day God’s heart is broken into pieces by us?
“What do I gotta do to get you in my arms? What do I gotta say to get to your heart?” – Brandy.
Jesus was persecuted His whole life, He was. Beaten, tortured, thorns forced upon His head and brow, pierced with a spear in his ribs and side, He was. Nailed in His hands, nailed in His feet, He was.
Crucifixion wasn’t a quick death either like some might think.
Bleeding from many wounds, thirsty from brutality and parched by the heat of the sun, He was. Forsaken and left for dead, He was. Withering into death, not only for His friends and relatives but for all of humanity, He was. Laid in a tomb, and forsaken again, He was. Brought back to life by the mighty hand of God, His father; brought to the exalted right hand of God, He was.
Willing to forgive us all for forsaking Him, willing to forgive us of all our transgressions and bring us closer to His side, forgiving and forgetting all we have done against Him and each other….. He is!
Now I ask you, in a reprisal of the lyrics: What does God have to do to get you in His arms? What does He have to say to get to your heart?
And now I ask you: What else can He do or say that He hasn’t already done or said? How much more love can He possibly give you, than what He has already given?