As I sit in a medium-sized surgical waiting room, I notice small groups of families and couples bustling in and out. FoxNews is blaring propaganda from Rush and others in an attempt to remind us that Obama is the liberal devil. Breaking News: Miley Cyrus announces her engagement to her 3-year beau and co-star from that Sparks guy’s novel-turned-movie. The national deficit is inching closer to $16 trillion and its Obama and his buddies’ fault.
All this is not helping much to distract me from the fact that my wife is somewhere less than 100-feet away from me in an anesthesia-induced sleep with doctors and nurses all around. Every minute of this “Booo! Evil Obama! Boooo!” alleged-news-reporter blasting seems just shy of an eternity. When are they gonna talk about Miley again? I don’t really care for her much either, but at least it’s a change in topic.
Really, I don’t think anyone’s surprised by Obama, except maybe those who are in denial and still think he’s the greatest pres. ever. And none of us will likely get a save-the-date envelope for the Kentuckian wedding an Australian event. But somehow, these are the biggest items of news they can dig up this morning.
Even now, I ‘m writing in my notebook with the cover that says, “Keep calm & smile on,” to distract myself from this reality. Writing, no doubt a gift from God, has always helped me to sort through my thoughts. My heart nearly stops every time the nurses’ door comes open, thinking it will be a call to tell me how she is doing.
When we learned of this surgical necessity just days ago, I was deeply saddened. Trying not to show it, I’ve been trying to be strong for her when she needs to lean on me. But it was she that first said to me that everything would be okay and that all of this is God’s plan.
“God’s plan,” I thought but dared not to speak? “How is this spirit-crushing thing God’s plan?”
Maybe He knows why we don’t need a new baby for Christmas she said with a gentle, yet hurting on the inside smile.
Momentarily, I wanted to be angry with Him. My mind wanted to look Him in the eye and scream at Him, “Why? She is your faithful servant. Why did You do this to her? To us? To me? To our family?”
But quickly, I knew she was right. It seems she has helped me on more than just this occasion to remember that He is always correct and in control. He has blessed us and will continue to do so as long as we keep our focus on Him. He will bless us all abundantly according to His will.
“Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God,” – Romans 5:1-2 (New International Version).
Another heart-stopping door opening moments from the nurse who still isn’t ready to tell me that she is out of surgery yet. The last few days have been tough, but sitting here is tough beyond belief.
Speaking of belief, my belief that God will take care of her, and us, and our family is the greatest comfort in my “what if” mind-racing moment of eternity.
Despite what I said earlier, I have clung to God since we found out. I have prayed near constantly for her to be okay physically and emotionally; psychologically and most of all spiritually.
Here’s the history making non-recalled governor of Wisconsin. Yet another mild non-distraction they’ve played over-and-over.
“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us,” – Romans 5:3-5.
I don’t mean to offend You Lord, but suffering sucks! But in the back of my mind, and in the middle of my heart, I know Jesus Christ will see us through this.
Some choose to dwell on their suffering, never gaining any benefit or higher perspective from it. But those who focus on God will undoubtedly see how He makes a negative situation into a positive one.
Suffering can yield perseverance, character and hope when we allow God to work in us. Hope is one of the great gifts that He has given us. Faith, Hope and Love. His love is the greatest gift and I feel that love all the time, even now, sitting here waiting with me.
Of the items we had to be sure to bring, I brought my “smile on” notebook and pen, but most importantly my Bible. I’m sitting in one of those wide, two-person seats provided in some newly renovated waiting rooms. As I read my Bible and occasionally write something down, I know I have the best comforter sitting right here with me.
His love is awesome! But right now, His hope is what is helping me not to fall apart. And my faith in Him lets me know that He will lead us through just fine.
Amen! We praise You Father for these and all of Your wonderful gifts.
The doctor has called for me. We start to walk toward a back sitting area when he notices the Bible in my hand and smiles. I still can’t see her yet, but he assures me that everything went the best it could’ve gone from his perspective.
Once again, Faith, Hope, Love and the power He gives our prayers is leading us through another storm. Amen!